The message for this post was dropped in my heart months ago BUT after a lot of distractions with my personal life I was putting off writing this post because due to my choices I felt my heart and mind were not in a state to even type this message. What I have learnt is that being distracted whilst one task is something that I really need to work on! For example, during my Masters whilst revising for my Masters exams as soon as I want to revise I start surfing the social media apps on my phone. After much procrastination I then realise the time I have wasted that could have gone to something more productive (my revision lol). Well this also applies when it comes to with my walk with God. God tells me to do something or even the simple things like praying and reading my bible yet somehow I end up not having time for it for one reason or another. Or the point where my academics start spelling into the personal time with God when my personal time with God should be fueling me during my studies because he is at the centre of it. Or spending your time comparing your position and season to somebody else instead of being content and making the most out of it. Stuff like this makes me realise I really need less distraction and more focus in all areas of my life especially in my walk with the Lord.
It’s simple right that less of me and more of Him will cause me to remain focused because trying to do things on my own accord or think about things that are not even applicable to me at the time takes me attention way from what important. The past couple on months have been a HUGE learning curve for me in terms with my faith. My faith has been tested and yes I have fallen into temptation and disobedience. I’m not proud about that at all HOWEVER those poor decisions I have made and the consequences have made me learn the hard way to NEVER take my eyes away from God and also to NEVER dismiss any conviction the Holy Spirit shows you. Well after a series of distractions I was lead to read Mark 4:1-20 (The Parable of the Sower). This is such an old school parable about how we react to hearing the word of God but I was drawn to verse 7,8 and 18-20 because my current state relates to the person who hears and believes the word but allows worldly distractions to take over to the point that I may not fully apply the word to my life. However I aspire to CONSISTENTLY be like the person described in verse 8 and 18-20. That I do not allow any distractions to swallow up the seeds therefore I am fruitful with whatever I am hearing and doing.
“Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants, so that they did not bear grain; Still other seed fell on good soil. It came up, grew and produced a crop, some multiplying thirty, some sixty, some a hundred times.”
“Still others, like seed sown among thorns, hear the word; but the worries of this life, the deceitfulness of wealth and the desires for other things come in and choke the word, making it unfruitful; Others, like seed sown on good soil, hear the word, accept it, and produce a crop—some thirty, some sixty, some a hundred times what was sown.”
Mark 4:7-8 & 18-20 (NIV version)
I realise that when I feel that distractions are coming and taking away my focus from what is more important that I need to take time and check myself and the state of my mind. I can overcome this by redirecting my focus to the things of above (Colossians 3:2). After all, God is my source and reason why I am able to do ALL the things I do! As a Christian I have the job of making Christ known to others not by anything fancy and drastic but with the little I have been given. The detours I have taken this season of my life are a bit mad I won’t lie to you. I am currently at a crossroads with my faith similar to the two paths I was talking about in my Slip Ups 101: Lust post. I can honestly say that I reached a stand still in need of a resetting because all matters of my spiritual growth dried up. My prayer, reading the word to the point where my motivation to crack on with my dissertation was affected (I thank God for his mercy and strength to see me through to the end!). I need to be the good ground that is fruitful how can I show Christ to anyone when I am distracted and the seeds do not manifest. How can I hear God if I am not spending time with Him. I came to terms with the fact that this person or particular thing was a distraction taking me away from the road ahead of me. These detours make me realise and feel that I have actually moved so far away from God and my heart is in need of a drastic cleanse. When I think and deep my actions over the past couple of months it makes me feel like why did I waste my time and energy on nonsense that I now started putting prayer and reading my bible on the back burner.
Nonetheless throughout all of these whirlwind of thoughts and emotions I will STILL trust in God to make a way because He has done it for me so so many times before now. He is the same yesterday today and forever even when I have been unfaithful He still shows me mercy and kindness. First of all, I need to repent for my sinful ways and allowing the desires of my flesh take over to the point I begin to feel lukewarm and my heart begins to harden . Second of all, I need to fully trust in God with all my heart because He will make my crooked paths straight and certainly won’t disappoint me. Thirdly, I need to get ready to battle through these tests so that I can be made stronger and mature in my faith. I can take comfort in Ecclesiastes 3 knowing that there is a time for everything. There will great times and not so great times but I still have faith to know that ALL things will work out for my good