So Loved Me

The love that both God and Jesus have for me

The fact that you were willing to be hung for my sins

You carried the cross falling along the way

Pierced in your side and nails through your hands

Just so that I can can reconciled with the Father

Your unconditional unchanging love for me amazes me day by day

Even when I am not meriting of such grace and mercy

You still give it to me

For all the times I have messed up

For all the times I’ve turned the other way

You are somehow always there

Like a faithful spouse you wait for me to come to you as I am

Not the flawed perfect version of who I think I should be

But the broken imperfect me that stands before you

A woman who is hurt and can easily hurt others

A woman who is confused about her calling and purpose

A woman who is holding on to offence and resentment

A woman currently struggling to forgive others

Even though time and time again you have forgiven me

What have I done to deserve this amazing love?

The longer I stay in darkness

The brighter the reality check will be once the lights are turned on

Is it worth it? For my mouth to say great things but my heart to be so far away

What do I do

Turn away from Him or run to Him?

What do I do

Stay down or get up?

It is worth it

To go back to my first Love and let Him heal me

It is worth it

When you never have to look back

Because you are now a new creation in Christ

You overcame death so that I can have life

So it will all be worth it